Tuesday, January 8, 2008

One Rainy Sunday Evening....

It all started on a Sunday evening when I had gone to meet a couple of friends from college ,who are married to each other, with Vikram (my other half - I consider myself the better one, but that's my personal opinion which my sovereign secular democratic nation allows me to have) . By the way when in Bangalore you don't have much of choice in terms of places to go to on a Sunday evening in case you are not a pub hopper like me. And luckily the rest of the gang was also not interested in drinking that day so we went to Ameoba (a popular bowling alley and other indoor games parlour).
Well, after a few rounds of usual lifting, twisting, rolling , falling, jumping and cheering of the ball, pins and human bodies (not necessarily in the same order) - the humans got tired while the balls and the pins got pricey!. Hence we headed for a nice place to eat at. Although Bangalore never ceases to surprise you with choices for foodies , we decided to keep it simple and small. The married couple (Deepankar & Deepti) suggested a small but decent place near their house, and we all agreed. Deepankar suggested that we keep the bike parked there at Ameoba while we all go in his car to his place and the restaurant nearby- which seemed quite fair cause it was drizzling outside.
As Deepti and I waited outside Ameoba discussing what gift to buy for Vikram on his birthday, which was round the corner, - I saw Deepti waving at Deepanker to guide him to the place we were waiting at . And wow! what a sight, Ah! - I saw him inside this shiny, luxurious, stylish, powerful and secure machine running on four wheels called the Ford Fiesta!!!!. Deepankar was steering the machine close to where we were standing so that we could hop in.
Go fida!! goes the punchline and there I was standing or rather sitting inside the car all flat and fida. Not that I had seen a ford fiesta for the first time - it was more to do with sense of security I felt in that drizzling evening which had spoilt or at least delayed the plans of many and had them running for shelter while we drove away cruising through the rain and the pot holes full of water!!
I suddenly felt the urge to arrest this feeling of security forever and felt this longing to own a car or..or wait a minute - even better.... to gift one! Voila!! I knew right that moment what to buy for Vikram on his 26th birthday.
It all happened so fast but still my thought process seemed to keep pace with the chain of events. I was so excited that I couldn't help having a quick discussion with Deepti about my idea of gifting a car to Vikram. In that frenzied excitement I didn't realize when I popped the question to Deepti, ' How much is the on-road price for this beautiful machine?'. 'Well, it was a gift from my parents' pat came the reply. 'But..' , she continued ' I guess they paid around 8'. 8 Lakh!!! my heart sank the way it had soared.
Vikram was seated in the passenger seat next to Deepankar , who was behind the wheel, oblivious to the thoughts running through my mind. I saw him quite pleased with the car and found him enquiring about the technicalities like mileage, engine capacity, speed pick up, maneuverability etc etc.
I wanted some time for myself so I started looking outside the window in the blank space where objects, people, other vehicles and the like appeared for a few seconds and disappeared again. I did not want to kill this feeling, I thought to myself if not a ford fiesta perhaps a smaller car. After all - it is all about feeling secure and safe and besides - a smaller car would serve the same purpose as a big car like Ford Fiesta except for the luxury part- which, I thought, could wait till I earned more.
I took a deep breath and decided to enjoy the feeling and dream on..... That evening we had a wonderful time together, we spoke of good ol' days and shared secrets and goof ups of college days. However - there was one secret which was not shared cause it had to be revealed..revealed in style! And boy what revelation!!
Dear reader please watch this space for more....

Monday, January 7, 2008

Serving the notice when no one's noticing!

Ever since I have put in my papers my day starts and ends with reading blog entries, surfing the net for personal reasons (like looking for an accommodation closer to my new work place, broadband service providers etc), composing good bye mails that I am supposed to send on the last day (I have one whole folder dedicated to farewell mails that I have received from my friends/colleagues who have left the company), forwarding useful mails to my personal ID and the like - In short I do everything that I am not paid for. Well, I am not complaining!
People have stopped giving me work, I have stopped getting mails from people (except for forwards, which have always been the major chunk ), no one questions me about my long lunch hours or hours spent in the wash room pondering over things (I get the best ideas in the loo!).
I am still not complaining!!
In fact I am enjoying this newly found freedom from work , deadlines, projects, meetings, KRAs and KPIs (For the uninitiated, KPI is Key Performance Indicator while KRA stands for Key Responsibility Area).
However the thought that this blissful state of carefreeness will last only for a few days does make me sad. Not that I don't want to work - it is the stress free state of mind where you don't have to prove anythin to anyone is what I am going to miss. I am going to miss people asking me in hushed tones about my next destination (read organization) followed by a congratulatory/good luck hand shake and a smile which can translate into various things - ranging from 'shit! I missed the bus' to 'I will follow suit soon'. I am also going to miss the adulation and the admiration that your senior colleagues show (for once) for you in order to hold ya back. Sometimes such kind words can be extremely deceptive and can put you into 'I am an indispensable part of this organization' mode which, I 'm afraid, does not last for long - for life goes on!!
Finally, I am going to miss being missed in meetings, parties, official gatherings, chat sessions at the pantry; for people will know that I am gone for good - but life will still go on, and I am not complaining:)